November 2011
October 2011
I send happy messages daily.
I’ve never seen more than one answered.
I wonder if people aren’t getting them…
or just don’t care.
Either way, I hope you all have a fabulous day, because you deserve it. I know, 90% of you reading this are thinking, “not me, but good luck everyone else!” But I want it specifically for you 90%. You 90% that haven’t had one in a while. It doesn’t have to be the perfect day, but I hope that you all laugh at the silly costumes, or smile at the changing trees, or are enjoying a beach (if you’re southern hemisphere ;))
Feeling more disconnected from everyone each day. Completely detached and very alone. I wish I knew what was happening to me.
Happy Halloween to my US followers
And my non-US followers too, though it won’t mean very much =]
Searching for Bliss: Winter Weight Loss →
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Girls, now that it’s getting cold and it’s time to start piling on the layers, don’t let that be an excuse to give up on your weight loss and fitness goals. Although other people might not see your progress, what’s important is that you see the changes in your body and feel proud of them.
Think…
ask me some questions? →
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in the mood for:
- TMI, sex stuff included
- rating your blog, with some feedback, though if i get a lot of these i’ll start answering them privately, or i may just publicly answer blogs i really love or start to follow and privately answer the rest or something
- silly would you rathers
- serous questions, too (such as about EDs, anxiety, depression)
- whatever else you want to know, i’m feeling pretty sharing
<3
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I love this girl so much<3
Body, Mind and Soul: Self-Sabotage →
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“Traditional dieting strategies don’t work for emotional eaters because the psychological aspects of weight management aren’t fully addressed by most plans. Most diet programs don’t deal with self-sabotage and the real reasons why we knock ourselves off track. To achieve lasting weight management…
Two weeks ago I went to the psychiatrist to talk about everything, and hopefully get some more anti-anxiety meds for my panic attacks
She told me that it was great I stopped my Geodon (anti-psychotic) on my own.
Even though I told her I was eating less than 500 calories a day typically, she said my weightloss was probably because of the Geodon. I felt like dying in that instant. Like all the work I had done was for nothing. Was because of a stupid fucking pill, and its chemicals not working on me. I felt like a failure.
Then when I told her I was taking a stress management class in my schedule, she decided mindfulness would be better than my panic attack medication.
I’m not okay. I feel like I’m drowning in feelings and emotions some days. I need my panic attack medication some times. It’s not like I take one a day….it’s when I’m standing in the doorway, unable to leave for school on my own. I typically had just got done throwing up multiple times, and am having a panic attack about people looking at me, seeing me, talking to me. About people hating me, about being late for class. About possibly falling on my walk to class. About people judging me based on my cane.
About being fat and disgusting, and the only control I apparently have over it is to stop taking my anti-psychotics.
Some days….I want to die. I told her that, she said “well, it’s not really depression”
I’m drowning in emotions, and I’m not okay. I’m not okay. I’m not okay. I’m not okay. I’m not okay.I’m not okay.I’m not okay.I’m not okay.I’m not okay.I’m not okay.I’m not okay.I’m not okay.I’m not okay.I’m not okay.I’m not okay.I’m not okay.I’m not okay.
There should be library jungles. With book trees and caves and hills and lands to explore.
